Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Behind Closed Doors

What should you do when doors you thought God had opened suddenly slam shut?

This happened to me.

I was thinking, Lord, where did I go wrong? Why is this happening?

I never expected God is still directing my steps. I held on to that plan for so long I was disillusioned that it is the best thing for me. It took up most of my time, my energy, my hopes and dreams only for God to take it away in the end.

Should I be angry at God? Should I be questioning Him?

NO.

Whatever happens God has a greater plan for my life. When the doors closed in front of me and I was left with nothing; it is where I found I had everything in God. In proper time, my pain will turn to praise as I begin to realize that God has closed a lesser door to open a greater one.

The darkness behind closed doors helped me appreciate what I have in a new light. I became more thankful and giving. It is not always easy at first, but as God begins to uncover His plans I also began to understand that the pain is the best way to show what real happiness is.

The wait is hard and tiring but as I began to understand God's timing that's when I began to see that obedience is the key whatever the situation is.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Atmosphere Changers

I have been so busy updating other sites other than my blog. I should really lecture myself for being so self absorbed or rather distracted.

So, how are you? How am I these past few days? I am actually in high spirits lately. I had an awesome day today and I feel butterflies in my stomach as I felt the love HE gave me this afternoon.God is just so majestic and I am so happy to be alive. God reminded me of his unfailing grace and boundless love. I have been finding love and happiness in different places but HE is just here, in my heart. My God, my savior.. He never left me, I just gave the devil some space to intrude with my relationship with God and with that I am very displeased with myself.

I have realize that I had changed. I had changed a lot. I used to be like this and like that. I hold on for too long for things which are part of the past. I kept on replying my regrets and what if's as if they are important to me. They are not. They are situations and things of the past. I should never look back.

I got distracted by the devil and because of that the atmosphere around me dropped at negative zero.

Today I had the wonderful opportunity of attending ARISE service by the Waikato Uni. I am half-hearted about it but I always remind myself that whenever I don't want to go. I NEED to go. They have a guest speaker from Melbourne and his name is Pastor Russel (If I'm not mistaken). He has this funny side of him that could tickle your funny bone. He could pass as a stand up comedian I must say. But he has a greater calling and that is - being a preacher. When he talked about the good stuff I can sincerely say it moved me to tears.

He talked about a lot of things but most importantly, he talked about the scripture which is in John 12:1-8. It is about Martha serving and Mary pouring an expensive perfume in Jesus feet. I have read this scripture before, a couple of times to be exact but God revealed to me things I didn't know a few hours ago.

There are some ministries where we are called to be a Martha to serve and there are some ministries where we are called to be a Mary and worship. I am enlightened by this single sentence. It spoke so much truth that I am shaking from it. Where am I? Where is the Martha in me? Where is the Mary in me? Am I Lazarus? Jesus even if I am so sticky and stinking from being dead, could you bring me back to life to serve and worship you?

The topic is about being an atmosphere changer. How Mary put her best to Jesus by giving the most expensive. It is even said that it is worth a year of wages. It must have been what Mary is saving for her wedding. It is so important to her. She was generous to God that she gave her all and even washed Jesus feet with her hair. I couldn't see a less passionate person than her, having to be lowly and servant like in the presence of Jesus.

If you love God, you love what he loves. Mary didn't just gave her best but she gave on excess. When you love Jesus your best is overflowing in excess. You are just so passionate it shows. It is like strong fragrance that can't be denied or contained.

She didn't care about the opinion of others. If you want to be an atmosphere changer you have to give your fragrance of heaven. The atmosphere of generosity and giving. Another good thing in showing your passion is that it exposes those people who has no passion, the phony ones. Mary's passion and devotion for Jesus exposed the heart of Judas which is a thief.

Christians will not bother if you lift your hands to God in worship. Why would they do that they are doing the same thing. Why are we so scared of showing people that we love God - we do love God and we want them to know. Christianity is not a religion but a relationship with Jesus Christ. That is how people should see our lives. We should never feel ashamed.

Also, passion to change the atmosphere actually prepares people to receive resurrection/ salvation from God.You being a christian is God's instrument in making other people trust him in many ways. That is what we call being a channel of God's blessings.

God never called you to be BOXED. We box ourselves on being phlegmatic or sanguine. We judge ourselves on the way we eat or the date of our birth or how the stars control the universe. We can never be boxed. Because Jesus can never be boxed. People in the past tried to box him out and roll a stone so that he can't get out. "He is the son of God let's box him and let death take him away" Jesus broke every box there is when HE ROSE AGAIN IN THE THIRD DAY and saved our sins, which proves that even death cannot box him.

Don't let people box you or name you, the name above your name is Jesus, and Jesus is the name above all names.

The devils plan is to box you, to bind you, to restrict you. The only things that can box you is what you allow to. The power of the devil has on you is what you give him to.

We, as Christians are atmosphere changers and we must bring out the passion, the desire, the generosity, the best, the fullest, to our God who deserves it more than ever.So that people around us can feel and see what kind of aroma God has.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Dear you

It has been a long time. How are you? I am praying that you are doing great especially with your relationship with God. To be honest I do doubt if I still deserve you. I am NO awesome person that you'd expect. Will you even still like me?

I am quite certain at this time and age romance has become overrated. People do not care much about manners and etiquette. Still my heart hopes and longs for your love. A love not taken out from a fairytale book but something more beautiful than that. I am praying for God to write our lovestory out of his most original works. Our story maynot be perfect but I am praying that it will be heaven sent.

Pray for me. I am losing hope of holding unto you especially because I do not know who you are or where to find you. I am holding and keeping the faith that I'll be able to see you soon.

Things are pretty hard for me nowadays. The loneliness ( as britney spears put it) is killing me. How will I put it? I miss you even if we didn't even met.

And one more thing. How will I know if it is you already and not another lesson (troll) who will just shatter my heart? I am scared to fall inlove and be disappointed like that.

I do not want to selfish or greedy. Just come soon, ok? I will be waiting.

P.s
I am planning to go to Australia this coming November. How I wish I'll meet you there.